hi chris. i used your computorz for pictures and 4chanz. p.s. ask me what i heard.

i took drunko picz.


i feel like i didn't really become a girl until about a year or two ago. before then i wished i had been born a boy and even asked my mom once if i had been born with both parts. i've never been attracted to females or anything but always wondered why i didn't want to wear low cut shirts and wear make-up and flirt with boiz and why i didn't fall in love with jtt at a young age or anything. when it came to children's t.v. i just always had a crush on the boy in the glasses. it didn't matter what he looked like underneath them. i just always loved the boy in the glasses.

but back to the point. now that i feel like i'm finally a "girl" i feel like there's been a lot of making up i've had to do. i talked to a lot of boys that i had huge crushes on when i wore men's t-shirts every day and didn't shower for a week at a time and when i finally learned how to semi-flirt with them i felt so "lOoK aT mE nOw BoYs" about it but after about 3 sentences into the conversations i just felt really happy that nothing had ever happened. it's weird because half of me wants to be like "fuck you, you didn't like me before i got boobs and wore mascara" but on the inside i know that really, sum boobiez and a lil make-up made me way more confident and after i got them i sought out guys that appreciated that sort of confidence in a girl. not just the boobiez and the make-up.

confidence is the sexiest thing ever. being able to walk into a room and no matter what think "i am hands down the most attractive person in this room" works WONDERS. i know it's hard to flirt if it doesn't come naturally and all that but if you can just show someone that they need to flirt with YOU instead they'll feel so inferior and wonder why (even though you're not the most attractive person in the room) you're so cocky. cock. hehe.

at least i've still got that sum1 that appreciated me either way. blehhh. drunko ramblings.

time 4 summa dat bed.