zwei

i give myself very good advice, but i very seldom follow it.

here's some words of wisdom from a very unwise time:
"Aside from the life of romance though, seeing seasons shifting from blue to grey is just a reminder of repetition everyday. I would feel that I would want revenge and depression for everyone, but if I must feel that I am the only one unhappy. I would have to remember, if I am not sure who I am, what I am, or not sure of the life of love, I am not alone and no one is. "

so anyway. i'm driving myself crazy again. it's the one year anniversary of when i lost my mind and i'm afraid it's gonna happen again. i think it already is. i'm afraid of sex. i'm not sure what it means anymore. i'm so uncomfortable about the idea of it these days that i almost feel the need to call it "the s word". i'm simply not sure who i am anymore and trying to figure that out in the bedroom isn't the answer.

let's stay positive though. keep our heads up, etc. stay with me. be patient.